I was very deeply depressed these days

It was not cause by anyone

It just came by itself

I felt useless

I felt I can't do things right

I can't achieve my dreams

And I was kinda selfish

I thought I have changed

But it seems not

All the negative thoughts came and attacked me

I feel like crying

But my feelings won't turn into tears

It won't let go

I was really in a bad mood

But I try not to show it

Cause it will make them unhappy too

I try to listen to ORANGE RANGE

A band that made me cried for the 1st time

And also the 2nd time

That is 10 minutes ago

Hitomi no Saki ni is the song

That sent me a message

A message that could make me cry it all out

I feel much more better now

Ryo, Yamato and Hiroki, you all have such wonderful vocals that able to make me cry again since that time I heard Kizuna. And also Naoto and Yoh, your guitar and bass, it's so sentimental. Thanks for giving us such beautiful song. Without you, I'm not what I am today. Please always be by my side. Arigatou gozaimasu...

Maple Story Jumping Quest!

This is Maple Story's last jumping quest in Sleepywood. John's last present!

I remember the first jumping quest.. do untill I cry T^T

The last one was quite a challenge. Phew~~ So happy that I got to the top^^ Yay~!!! This quest got Pink Flower Earring(Level 60)

Another happy thing in Maple is I finally reached level 60!! xDDDDDDDD Grats to myself^^ How many years already I play Maple.. longing to wear that!! Mwa ha ha ha ha!!

New Year

Konbanwa!! Happy New Year!

It's been a long time since I'm here and it's like I'm abandoning my blog here. Sigh... honestly I'm losing my readers and I don't have the motivation to blog anymore.. Sad TT *sobs* Not only my blog, I seldom visit blogs and forums now. But I try to go sometimes.. trying to catching up news. Sorry if there are still some readers left ≧.≦ I would like you all to leave some comment after reading, cause it's my motivation to write more =)

It's new year.. and not a good start for me. I fall sick on first day of school. Sigh. Then busy for the whole first week in koperasi. Selling school books on PNP time. Have to skip class. All the teachers were complaining. Best friend was crying. But I'm sure all of this will be over soon^^ I just have to be strong to face this last month of the TIGER. Hope the RABBIT/HARE will treat us better.

It's not all bad.. I think. I begin to concentrate in school. Not like last year. Last year's burdens and sadness? All left behind already^^ I don't know it will be so free after I don't care about those fake friendship. Phew~! What for so sad for all those unnecessary things? Right? Now, I can see who treat you like a friend and who stab your back always. I have become stronger. Thanks, my dearest Bear^^

Now I'm eagerly waiting for Chinese New Year!! xDD Once I get my angpow, I will bank in money to WeeN for my DVD!!!! Wait for me dear DVD!! xDDDDDDD If that girl changes her decision on the mags, please do inform me!!^0^

I dreamt about Renji recently. They came to my house. They look when they are in 2003 xD Still young.. & ofcourse Katchan is with them. Hehe~~

So this year, I'm gonna concentrate on studies and BE STRONG!!!!!!!!!! I'm not the weak Ee Suan anymore!!!!!!! GGYYAAAHH!!!

Currently feeling: Oh yeah~~ feels good xD
Currently doing: Mapling